Mungkin yang dibutuhkan hanya kesabaran dan hati yang besar untuk melalui masa-masa seperti ini. Mungkin yang dibutuhkan adalah keyakinan bahwa hari-hari seperti ini akan berubah menjadi hari-hari yang lebih baik. Entah berapa lama, entah akan menjadi seperti apa. Mungkin saya hanya perlu menjalaninya tanpa perlu berpikir macam-macam. Mungkin saya terlalu banyak berpikir sendiri. Mungkin saya tidak boleh tidur terlalu malam, karena semakin larut semakin banyak pikiran-pikiran yang muncul di kepala.

Selamat malam.

I Won't Give Up : Rachel Berry

When I look into your eyesIt's like watching the night skyOr a beautiful sunriseWell there's so much they hold
And just like them old starsI see that you've come so farTo be right where you areHow old is your soul?
I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking up
And when you're needing your spaceTo do some navigatingI'll be here patiently waitingTo see what you find
'Cause even the stars they burnSome even fall to the earthWe've got a lot to learnGod knows we're worth itNo, i won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easilyI'm here to stay and make the difference that i can makeOur differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and giftsWe got yeah we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intendFor us to work we didn't break, we didn't burnWe had to learn, how to bend without the world caving inI had to learn what i got, and what i'm notAnd who i am

Rough.

Nyokap gw cuma perlu bilang ke adeknya,

"lo tuh cari kerja lah.. Kasian istri lo yang repot, belom lagi punya anak bayi. Kang bebas aja masih nawarin kerjaannya dia ke temen-temannya. Yang udah pensiun aja masih mau usaha buat cari kerjaan."

Dan omongan itu bisa bikin gw nyaris kesedak makan malem gw sendiri di meja makan. Rasanya kok kayanya nyokap ga cuma ngomong dua arah, ya..

These days, everything seems to be more serious. How could it be? I wanna go back to where everything was not as real and as serious as these days. Everything, every part of my life.  Childish? I know I am. Well, at least I keep on the track, getting along with what's going on. I don't how long will I walk on. Maybe forever, maybe not.

Life's getting rough and yes I have to face it. Oh I don't like this situation.