HELLO 2011!

hello. this is 2011 and how do you do? hmmm.. weeeeelllll, where should i start it from? do i have to introduce my self again? i'm still jessica, or maybe i'm familiar as jeje. some things have been changed. i'm no longer a high school student like the first time i wrote in this blog. i am an employee. now! and it sucks. yes, honestly. life has been changed. daddy has been retired, my brother now stays at bandung for college. and my mom's easily getting worried about things.

my beautiful tante nia married a man with 2 daughters. he's om awan, but his daughters idya and dinda who lives with their mom. we usually meet at the family gathering. my grandmother whom i called "Ibu" passed away on april 2010, about a week before my birthday. i kinda miss her, there's no more "ibu-gendut" who used to asked me when will i graduate from college like over and over each time i met her. and she's no longer on bed when i come to visit her house and take a nap on her room. things are come and go. after Ibu passed away, months later, i've got another cousins which is another girl in the family. she's falisha and she looks like Ibu very much, her chin and most of her face! she's ditta and icha's new sister - daughters of om didit and tante dewi whom are expecting a boy in the family because there are to many girls when my mother's siblings are gather. but God gives us another girl, so we thank God for His gift. and after the newborn baby girl, tante iris starts a new life with her 'bule' husband - uncle olaf - at Houston, Texas. I know we had too much cat-fights but it was sad when i went to the airport and saw her left her family. but for God sake, she's doing great with her new life.

my life was upside down. had too much fight with my boyfriend but he's the one who always understands and being so patient. i'm so glad and i can't believe it, we're gonna have the second years anniversary this february. oh-i'm-so-thankful-and-so-in-love. this is the longest period of relationship in my life, although not for him. rrrggghh. hahahaa.. i got mad easily and i was so temperament. it looked like everything he did was wrong. i got mad when he stayed late at campus because i knew he did nothing, there's nothing important. got drink drank drunk and i really hate it. i thought it was better for him to made a portfolio and get a job. in the other side, i knew he was quitted his job for about 2 months after 9 months worked as a freelancer and he needed some times to chilled before another job. arguing, complaining, ignoring, teasing was kinda things i did and i forget how things back to normal. those shits were happened at the end of the year and i just wanted to spend the last day of 2010 on a good mood and the first day of 2011 and the other 364 days should be great, with him and with my life. on new year eve he's the person who hugged me and we watched the fireworks together. since the first time i fell in love with someone, i was dreamt about that night. a night with so much fireworks on the sky and that someone, hug me and we're just staring at the colorful sky. and he made it, dewa pratama did it :p we spent the NYE at puncak with our friends. it was good and we're so happy. lemon on beer made me cool. hahaha.

anyway, i am currently working as a graphic designer at Lancome, one of L'Oreal's beauty products. this is my third week on this office. so far still good, and not much to tell. after i graduated, i spent a month jobless. the opportunity came on november until december, The Brand Union, a big company in branding called me for an internship. two months flies like a week. i really like The Brand Union. i could learn about brand and branding, the subject that i haven't learnt a lot at college. there were only 5 persons on The Brand Union. first, Yasha Chatab the managing director, Primo the account manager (we only met for a month because he was resigned, and replace by Efrat), Diana the graphic designer, David the financial-man, and Mimi the administrator.

what else to tell? cookie? he's already 1 year old. my parents already get along with his noise and when he runs around the house. dad always likes to take him for a walk and back home with stories to tell from their 'trip'. almost every weekend, dad wakes me up in the morning and ask me to put a leash on cookie because he can't do it. cookie barks and wave his tail whenever dad go to my room with leash on his hand. cookie knows that he will have a walk with dad. he is very excited. hahahaa..

wheeeww i post a blog. finally! cool! and i wrote it in english, which i know there must be many mistakes written. hahahha.. don't worry, people learns from their mistakes. i hope this year, i'll be back to blogspot and share my stories like i used to. if there's a place to write as much as you like, why should you write on the 140-character-media?! jokiiiiing! i still need u, twitter! :p

how i miss writing, honestly :)

Adult Relationship by Dinda Nawangwulan

Adult Relationship

Ketika seorang teman membuka topik tentang bagaimana dia menemukan seseorang yang ia yakini bahwa "she's the one", pembicaraan kita melebar hingga bagaimana pada akhirnya mereka takluk akan pasangannya. Toleransi menjadi hal utama yang mereka rasakan agar hubungan dapat berjalan dengan mulus.

Kesadaran itu buatku adalah suatu hal yang patut dihargai, dan ini tidak lagi kita bicara soal "gender", buatku laki-laki dan perempuan mempunyai kedudukan yang sama, mereka sama-sama ingin dihargai, dimengerti, didengar, dicintai, diperlakukan dengan baik dan diberikan kesetiaan sepenuhnya dari pasangannya....

Disaat kita sudah mencintai seseorang, tanpa sadar kita memang akan melakukan hal-hal yang mungkin dulu tidak terpikir oleh kita lebih-lebih dibayangkan, hanya karena kita benar-benar ingin membuat dia bahagia karena kita menginginkannya untuk selamanya dalam sebuah komitmen jangka panjang, dan mulailah ada ekspektasi yang kadang timbul disaat kita merasa sudah menemukan cintanya.

Namun bagi seseorang yang masih mengejar cintanya, kadang ekspektasi itu bisa menjadi bumerang bagi dirinya sendiri. Bagaimana tidak, akhir-akhir ini aku mendengar beberapa kisah beberapa teman yang gagal dalam mempertahankan hubungan tersebut. Kondisi memburuk disaat rasa ingin memiliki terlalu besar, hingga kembali kepada ekspektasi yang berlebihan kepada pasangannya. Bukan lagi kenyamanan yang didapat melainkan rasa curiga yang berlebihan and bad assumption. Tentu saja bukan itu yang kita inginkan dari sebuah hubungan dua orang dewasa kan?

Adult relationship, dalam prosesnya kira-kira seperti ini; It begins as friendship. Time spent together, mutual interests, then we can be someone to talk to, be someone who can understands them. Someone who listens, who laughs with and cries with. Then one day, quite by surprise, you kiss and gaze into each other's eyes and know things have changed and there is no going back. You allow them to know that secret place in your heart and soul and the other way around. You let them free, free being themself. Then finally reality tells you it is a love that cannot last but while you have it you know the euphoric and magical thoughts of love.

Dan ketika kita sudah tidak jujur baik terhadap pasangan maupun diri sendiri, itu perlu dipertanyakan... apakah benar ini hubungan yang ingin kita jalankan in a long term..??

I'm writing this just to share my thoughts aja...So, ketika kita merasa menemukan seseorang jalani saja seperti air mengalir, biarkan waktu yang menjawab tanpa kita mengharapkan balasan apapun, berikanlah cinta dan kepercayaan yang terbaik and the most important thing is always trust what your heart tells you, don't deny it.

Well...i just hope that you'll find the one...

semoga kita semua menemukannya tanpa harus kehilangan lagi.

happy soulmate-searching, lovers :)

end of the year

masa-masa pengerjaan tugas akhir yang penuh semangat dan rasa kesal sudah selesai, tapi kebiasaan-kebiasaan seperti memilih folder "Bismillah TA" di laptop padahal mau nyari folder lain masih terbawa. kebiasaan ga bisa tidur cepet, kebiasaan ga ngapa-ngapain kalo siang dan baru malem melakukan sesuatu yang berguna juga masih kebawa. ga tau sampe kapan.

dibuat nangis sama tempat nge-print karena kesel warna yang di-print sama warna yang dibuat engga sama, jadi salah satu hal yang bikin tegang di akhir-akhir masa pengerjaan tugas akhir. ya kali, warnanya harus gw ganti lagi biar keluar?

yang namanya perang dingin sama pacal udah ga keitung. dari sekedar hal kecil sampe hal ga penting. dari PMS sampe ga ada angin ga ada ujan, kesel aja. dari namanya pacal peduli sampe ga peduli gw mau marah mau ngapain juga. hahahha.

duit yang abis? ga tau juga sih. itu bon-bonnya masih ada kok di dompet, rencananya sih mau diitung berapa abisnya tapi lumayan lah bisa dikira-kira.

sidangnya? lancaaaarrr! dan BIASA AJA LHO YANG NAMANYA SIDANG ITU! SUMPAH BANGET! 15 menit yang serasa 5 menit dan ga berarti. gw sampe merasa kalo sidang-nya kentaaaaaang! ah apa karena gw si lucky number one? iya, jadi gw membuka sidang tugas akhir semester genap 2009/2010 sebagai si nomor 1 yang maju sidang. keren yaaah?! dengan persiapan draft mau-ngomong-apa yg gw buat pada malam hari sebelum sidang, yang akhirnya ga digunakan sama sekali. berbekal omongan orang, "selama itu semua elo yang ngerjain, elo pasti nguasain materi dan santai aja" gw pun melepaskan teks pidato yang gw buat dan berjalan (sok) PD kedalam ruang sidang tanpa membawa apapun. hasilnya? B+ horeeeee!

dan akhirnya, hari yang ditunggu-tunggu pun datang. bukan wisuda. tanggal 2 septermber 2010 adalah yudisium yang jauh lebih penting dan berguna daripada wisuda, karena melalui yudisium, kita mengetahui bahwa kita semua lulus dan mendapat nilai apa. yaudah ya B+ bikin nyengir juga. Alhamdulillah. selain itu, tanggal 2 september adalah anniversary mamih sama babap dan hadiah dari gw adalah kelulusan ini :) dan pada hari yudisium itu, gw merayakan kemenangan dengan lari-larian main guyur-guyuran cat sampe air yang kalo kata El, "wooyy air tai woooy air tai!" yang sumpaaaah bau-nya beneran kaya tai, dimana air itu diambil bukan dari got tapi dari "sumur" dibawah pohon depan gedung O yang kalo kena angin aja, itu lubang air bisa menghembuskan angin "segar".

lumayan sih ya sedih gitu pas milih-milih foto yang mau dimasukin ke blog ;(

terima kasih dewa pratama

atas masa-masa menyenangkan di masa perkuliahan :)

selamat dan sukses ya,

teman-teman DKV 3

ayooo cari kerja, teman-teman! :D

garret, gita dan tasya

sebangsat-bangsatnya orang-orang yang jadi temen gw dari pertama kali menginjakan kaki di desarupa trisakti ya mereka.

hahahhaa.. uuuwwwhh bakal aneeeen!

every goodbye brings a new little hello closer

- pagi siska -

last but not least ;)